I've think a lot of things throughout the night , how am i suppose to face you again?
Janice , i'm really so in love with you , so much that i couldn't control my emotions , your smses made my day sometimes , yet sometimes your smses makes me real upset. Comeon, this is a phase of live so i guess you should be okay with it. I know what done cannot be undone. So much so much bad things i've done. i've totally ruin my impression. Even me myself , on 2nd thought , couldn't believe wtf i did.how crazy i was. I shouldn't have went clubbing , i get jealous too easily. my heart aches ,really aches when i see you dancing with other guys . i didn't want to stay . thats why i typed " Home,Bye" Why didn't you stop me. Instead , julie was the one who stopped me. i'm very certain i harbor no intentions of grinding her , no intentions to take advantage of her. I seriously have no feelings towards her. It's just that when i turn my head , look at you dance with the guys and enjoying yourself.I expressed all my anger into the dance.Trying so much to let you steal that extra glimpse of me and get jealous. YUP , i was dumb really dumb , to even had those thoughts
Right now , i'm looking at my text messages , the one where you said you will come for my match. I'm all smilessssss when you agreed to go out with me. I even showed off to my friends as well as brenda . Now i feel empty , really empty when the chances of you coming to see my match became so slim. I don't know how am i suppose to play the game . With you on my mind only. Trainings , my mind is all about you. Whether you will come , whether you will be cheering for me. Whether you will enjoy the DIY stuffs i made for you. Wondering if i can succeeed , i didn't know i actually lost to jealousy. With so much anticipation of you coming for my match , i wonder how this game is going to carry on w/o you. How my valentine's day i going to be. I'm sorry i have to express my feelings for you in such a manner.I don't even think i mean anything to you . Except for a desperate guy.
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